I dont want to be heterosexual anymore?

Men confuse me, make me angry, sad, unready, lack confidence and they arent making me in the least bit happy. Dont misunderstand, i can make my own self happy but im just tired of doing it by myself. I mean it seems today that women have to be their own rocks, when will women rocks be able to depend on men as rocks? I just get so depressed and angry and some part of me wants to be with a guy while another part hates them and wants them wiped off the face of the earth. And when i do happen to get the attentions of the opposite gender, they come up with some tacky pickup line that just makes them look silly. Also what the hell is with you guys turning your head degreesrees to check out another women. That pisses me off so much i just want your heads to snap off when you do it. At this point dont know what else to do and i would really like some help to fix this before i lose my mind. And i know you people might say that if i preferred women then i would have to deal with similar if no the same issues but at least i would be ten times more happier and chances are i wont get the same bs i see from men. i mean at least they can open up and say how they feel and do things to make the other person in their life happy unlike men. All my life when im around guy dont get happy, you just make me miserable and hateful. It seems to me that men in this world are not doing their job in trying to comfort me in any way. i mean i dont need you to wait on me hand and foot i just want you to be there to support me emotional or physically. Just throw me a bloody bone or something. Reach out to me before i fall further into this abyss of hatred that i never get out of. Save me from myself.